Rebuilding a Life in Truth & Why I Still Don’t Know What I Do for a Living

Why astrology is a map back to wholeness & “the void” may be your greatest teacher.

I always struggle to answer the question, "what do you do for a living?" Maybe every entrepreneur does. But for me, it feels existential. I love to work. I love to build, create, and express. And not knowing how to put words to what I do feels like missing a chance to be seen - which, I think, is something all humans crave at a soul level.

"Astrologer" or "artist" are the closest answers. But they feel incomplete. They describe the tools I use, not the essence of the work. I don’t just read charts. I use astrology as a language of return and remembering. A vehicle for unraveling the layers that convinced us life was something happening to us, rather than through us.

And in that unraveling, something even more profound is revealed: the pressure to become dissolves, as you unearth who you already are. Astrology removes the shame of comparison and the pressure of expectation, through unveiling the meticulous design of your uniquue nature - your gifts, your timing, even your shadows. Nothing is wasted. Nothing is random. Just a deeper kind of order, waiting to be trusted.

That shift, from victim consciousness (life is happening to me) to creator consciousness (life is happening for me), is the root of every healing path. And astrology, for me, has become the compass. Your chart reveals where your wounds are likely to surface AND where you are most gifted. It reveals the curriculum. It reminds you that you’re not broken, you’re simply moving through a perfect process of growth, evolution and empowerment.

I once heard Zach Bush speak about how humans are the only sentient beings who forget their divinity. Birds don’t pause to admire the sunset - they fly through it, already knowing they are one with it. We stop to marvel because we believe we are separate. Or maybe because a small part of us remembers, which is why we’re drawn to it, but we only experience flickers of this all-encompassing knowing in our sober, waking life (unless we’re under the influence of a mind-altering substance or some kind of psychosis). It reminds me of a Saint Augustine quote I often reference which says: “people travel to wonder at the height of mountains, at the huge waves of the sea, at the long courses of rivers, at the vast compass of the ocean, at the circular motion of the stars, and yet they pass by themselves without wondering." These words were written over 2,000 years ago - we have been forgetting our divinity for some time.

Babies remember. You can see it in their eyes. No mind yet formed, no grasp of separation. Just wholeness. Adolescence pulls us out of source and into self. Then, healing brings us back. That is the path I walk (and the path I teach). Reconciling our existential longing for oneness with our separateness is the human condition. And bridging that gap is why we’re here.

I was not always this way. Ten years ago, I was tired - mentally, emotionally, spiritually. I didn’t trust life. I felt separate from it, like I had to manage everything alone. I clung to control because I didn’t yet feel a greater intelligence moving beneath the surface. That disconnect manifested in my body and in 2017, everything collapsed. My nervous system, my plans, my sense of self. It wasn’t random. It was my body’s way of inviting me back into alignment. A painful grace. A clearing disguised as ruin. The path of healing - of slowly returning to trust - would become the true rebuild. And it would take years.

For me, the crash was not the hardest part - it was the void which followed. I couldn’t rush my return, because I knew I had to allow my life to blossom, to build it brick by brick. And I didn’t have the energy to push it (or fake it) - chronic illness demanded slowness because my soul demanded integrity.

And so I floated. I trusted. I learned to track my seasons by the sky. Astrology reminded me there was divine order. That there was a tide and I was in rhythm, even while seemingly lost.

I teach astrology now because I know the value in understanding the questions of your life. Astrology doesn’t answer them, there is no way to bypass living your way into the answer, but it does provide a compass. It gives context, orientation, and a kind of sacred permission. From that light, everything softens. You no longer have to force clarity or rush the next chapter. You begin to trust the unfolding. And from that trust, life becomes not only more gentle - but more fulfilling, more whole, and sustainable. Because when your path is rooted in truth, rather than fear of the void, what you build is real and aligned.

If you’re curious to see all of this in action, in a couple of weeks, I’m offering a live Soul Map session with my dear friend Jordan Younger (you might know her as The Balanced Blonde). Jordan and I met during one of the hardest seasons of our lives, and our friendship has deepened through a shared commitment to healing and radical trust in life. This session includes access to my Soul Map Journal - a self-guided astrology journal and gentle introduction to reading your birth chart. No prior knowledge is required. Jordan’s chart will serve as a living example of how to use the Soul Map Journal as a tool for self-inquiry, or even to begin reading charts for others.

If you’re curious about astrology but feel overwhelmed, this session is for you. If you’ve always wanted to use astrology as a tool for deeper self-knowing, this is the perfect place to start. Join us live on Zoom, August 2nd, by signing up here.

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The preparation for this live call has been a meaningful opportunity for me to reconnect with my “why” and the journey its taken to get here. As part of that process, I’m sharing some of the personal reflections, journal prompts, and the altar prayer I’ve been working with during the current chapter I’ve lovingly named my summer of adrenal healing and nervous system strengthening.

These reflective prompts are tender, ongoing, and meant to be felt - not just read. I’ve created a hand-illustrated PDF for anyone wishing to bring these prompts to their own altar or healing space.

✧A printable PDF of journal prompts & altar prayer below ✧

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